Punishment Via Food Deprivation?

Subject: Punishment Via Food Deprivation? Sun Jan 20, 2008 1:08 am

I wanted to know if anyone else has ever 'punished' themselves by not eating? By 'fasting' as it were. I do this from time to time when I am really down. It seems only justified by my reasoning that I don't deserve to eat.

Just curious. Smile

Subject: Re: Punishment Via Food Deprivation? Sun Jan 20, 2008 3:32 am

While I am unsure if I have ever done this on a conscious level...I know that when I am stressed or having a really "bad" day...I do not eat...I continue to drink my Pepsi....cause that is what flows through my veins...LOL

And I tend to smoke like a chimney....but food is not something that I can even think about...well, I mean for me....having a houseful..ALWAYS!!....I continue to cook for them...dragging myself to the kitchen...planning a healthy meal for my husband, Michael and the kids....but I do not eat a bite...the thought makes me nausious... What a Face

When I am really depressed...this may go on for 3-4 days...which I KNOW is not healthy but I am somehow unable to do anything about it!! OMG, I wonder if this would be considered an eating disorder??? I will have to think about that...hummmm pale

Good topic...Mad Jack king

Subject: Re: Punishment Via Food Deprivation? Sun Jan 20, 2008 6:20 am

Mad Jack wrote:: I wanted to know if anyone else has ever 'punished' themselves by not eating? By 'fasting' as it were. I do this from time to time when I am really down. It seems only justified by my reasoning that I don't deserve to eat.

I do do this a lot.

It's motivated more out of anger than melancholy, and I can be super punitive about it and go days without food if need be. Though I try not to be quite that bad!

It's definitely motivated in punishment.

*hugs*

Subject: Re: Punishment Via Food Deprivation? Sun Jan 20, 2008 6:39 am

Wow, thanks. Embarassed

Talk about feeling crazy for something...well I did. I don't so much now lol *HUGS* Embarassed

Subject: Re: Punishment Via Food Deprivation? Sun Jan 20, 2008 6:59 am

My partner doesn't understand it at all. Sometimes we'll be arguing, and then I will feel guilty for that argument, and if we're on the way to dinner I will just change my mind and shut down 'food' basically.

The perverse thing is, at those times, it's usually when I'm craving specific foods anyway. Almost as though I'm deliberately holding my favourite foods in my mind, to specifically cut myself off from them.

Subject: Re: Punishment Via Food Deprivation? Sun Jan 20, 2008 5:39 pm

This even disgusts me to write about it, but I have done the opposite.

I have eaten until I hurt - and I don't mean like the Christmas dinner - ooo I've eaten too much hurt - i mean - until I have real physical pain in the stomach area.

It's then that my body literally makes me pass out to deal with the influx of carbs / sugar / whatever i binged on.

The thing is - I'm doing this as consciously as you MJ, might be denying yourself food.

Sometimes, I've sat on the bed in the room with the curtains closed and just wailed crying whilst forcing myself to eat more.

The pass out though is like a reprieve - like I'm finally allowed to just forget the world and go to sleep all wrung out.